Time's up

Reconfiguration of the mind has taken place
Looking in the mirror, I feel disgraced
Though saved by grace
I have taken up to must space
In feeble thinking 
Keep shit on my mind
Going from intelligence to desolate waste
And I know better
Have chosen to keep company
With wolves in sheep clothing
Cause good days use to bore me
Chaos was my best friend
Loved it and drama, it's first cousin
But now I have left them hoes at the corner
Of enough and fed up
Gave them the middle finger, they got me messed up
So now I am soul cleaning
Not just mopping and sweeping
I am talking about changing the wallpaper and steam cleaning
Cause I can't move forward with the weights of others
People will suck you dry like you are their breast feeding mother
Some of you don't deserve my pearls, you swine
Trying to save you is like trying to keep a fruit fly from dying
There is a time limit...so no need in me trying

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It's yours....

Be great to yourself. Don't allow your past mistakes make you not be able to love who you are in your process of being. It is a process....a step by step....a daily workout in becoming the amazing individual to bless the collective. Don't worry about who is not helping, who is hating, and who is coming against you....what are you going to do?

Are you going to buckle? Give up? You have already tried that and failed. You couldn't stop growing if you tried....the passion and drive within you won't let you quit....

So put that energy into it all the way, wholeheartedly....and watch what happens.

Success, joy, and happiness is yours for the owning.

Peace & Love
~ X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

I will be free.....

I will be free...

You ever decide that you are going to do for you. Start your own businesses, finish a project or projects, organize your life in a manner that works for you...then KABOOM.....You get accused of being a bad friend to the people who have been running over you this whole time. People who have taken advantage of your skills and gifts. Using you like a cheat sheet in life to short cut their way to their own success and give nothing but nickels and dimes to yours.....

You are not a lifesaver if you have no life within you. If you are always giving and never receiving your due diligence, them you are no good to anyone. We are responsible for who we are, where we are in life, and the things we must do. Some of us are in different stages, but there are some expectations that are no longer being required. Women will bed a man with no job, no prospects of income, and live at his mama house. Men will bed women who have no goals or dreams except Child support and food stamp days.....WHY...because they think they can change them, make them better....You can change the way they dress and the way their hair looks, but you can't touch their thought patterns if they don't let you.....

I am not saying don't help people, but don't do it to the point where it compromises you. I am in my process of organizing my life. I have deleted people on Facebook, Twitter, and in real life. I am not giving a gateway for anyway to send negative energy my way nor am I leaving doors open to people who I know I will let take me through because they know I love them. I am reconnecting with my true self...the God in me and setting the bar higher than ever before. I am saving my self. Reprogramming my thinking and being. I have stopped so many things in a few days....I feel the breaking in my own soul....the day has come for me to free myself from my own personal chains....

Be free my friends.....great morning...:-)

Peace & Love,
~ X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

Forever in our hearts...Etta James

She sang
From her heart she sang
For the broken heart and those in love
She sang
When they said she had no place to sing
She sang
From her spirit
She sang
From her soul
She sang
For the young
She sang
For the old
She sang
Etta James.....sang

~ X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

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My affirmation....

‎"I refuse to look in the mirror one day and wonder why on earth I am where I am. No matter what I do in my life, I will choose my steps carefully and to the best interest of my destiny. I will no longer be afraid of who is not there, but appreciate who is there. I will no longer look for love, but appreciate the love that is there. I will not look for a friend, but allow those who have shown themselves friendly to be apart of my life. From the best of life, I will live." ~ X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

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My Dreams.....

I have a dream that all the dreams I have set before me I can resurrect and one day make a reality........

How many dreams and goals have you had that you put away? How many ideas and thoughts did you decided to give up on because someone convinced you that you weren't qualified to have them? How many times have you peek in that closet and thought...what if?

What if I hadn't given up on my dreams? What would my life be like? What if I took up the profession I wanted instead of the one forced on me by my parents? What if I married the one I fell in love with instead of the more suitable choice????? WHAT IF??????

What if, today, you went inside your closet and started to go through those lost dreams and goals. You will find that they are still there, and some have even matured without you realizing it. Everything that you are designed to do, be, and have is at your discretion. You have to have the courage and gusto to go for it. Whether it is a degree, career change, business opportunity, relationship opportunity, or even hair color change (smile), you decide on what you want to do.

I know it can be scary. I mean, let's admit it, fear can cripple our dreams. Often times, our fears aren't failing at what we want to do, but other extremes that we create in our minds. Fears like being hurt physically, losing a family member, or just the most extreme things that could go wrong. This is because we have never been taught in our educational experiences, that we are designed to be successful. That we are designed to prosper. That being black isn't an inferior position unless we believe it to be so.

I want to encourage you this morning and tell you that your dreams are not lost. Hope hasn't left you, and Faith is waiting on you to believe to make your dreams and goals come true....will you believe today.

Peace & Love, 
 ~ X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

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120101PODCAST-SHAWNSTEVENSON.mp3 - Majic

He......

He told them I was special
He had to
otherwise why would they come at me like they do
Say all kinds of crazy cause he said I was amazing
Said that I make him smile and laugh
And whether it's 3 pm or 6am, his calls I would never gaff
I make myself to him available
Because my spirit he keeps stable
My passion he enables
Let's me be me, not needing to be a princess from fables
He is the truth
But I swear he is unreal
Not about how he makes me feel
But how he makes me want him
And I am thankful to them
Cause they inspire him to want me
Every negative thing they say
Causes him to search diligently
For the best of me
They tell him he is wasting his time
So he brings me chocolate covered blueberries and wine
They tell me I have too many kids
He falls in love with them like they are his
I go from needing his talents to appreciating his opinion
They get his abilities, but I get love from him
Funny thing is
I now find myself searching for the best in him
Past his pains that he acts aren't real
Or the emotions he ignores because he is not sure how to feel
I see him...the real
Osiris in the form of my savior
He is God and king to me
When I look at him that is all that I see
Even when I failed to love him right, he never left me
So I stand here ready to care for his heart
Live in his soul
Allow his spirit to teach me to be whole
I await for the day when my last name is changed
My heart has been exchanged
Love is all I feel, pain no longer remains
Growth in understanding the goal we are here to obtain
Has me sitting ere saying
Thank you to the ones who thought they knew
He only speak that way about me, cause he loves me...not you...

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Self planted kisses....

Self planted kisses on my soul

I look in the mirror every morning and say Hello Blu...what shall we do today? What will we create? What greatness will we allow to come through our spirits and manifest in our reality? What are we going to do....

Why do I say we....

Because I am nothing without my creator. I am nothing without my resource. I am nothing without God. I have nothing without God. There is nothing without God...God is Allah.....all to me and everything that I am and all I will ever be.

Daily, I strive to live in the perfected spirit of my higher self. I fight the demons of depression, doubt,, insecurity, lust, greed, anger, and all those things that aren't of God. I can only live in my higher self because I have become aware of the ability to exist above circumstances and situations that can cripple our hearts, conflict with our faith, and shadow our hope....

I am thankful to God for the lessons of 2011. I am thankful for the growing pains of life because with each scar, I see Allah's healing power. With each ache, I see Allah's soothing nature, and with each bump on my head, I see Allah's grace and mercy.....

Be encouraged and be blessed....

Peace & Love
~ X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

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Black sheep.....

I grew up thinking I was the black sheep because my mother like them more than she liked me...probably because of my daddy


I know so many multiple fatherless homes....meaning mom has children with different fathers. Each father coming with it's own experience and own pain. Mom is doing her best to make things workout and there is struggle...especially when one man won't help with his, but the other does...

I will say if you are a mother and treating your children differently based on the men you chose to lay with, you are dead wrong and are undeserving of those blessings in your life. Truthfully, mothers do this even if things are good and the children have one father....let one child look like him more than the others or be the only man child....it's like the hatred from the failure of the relationship has no end...

Then you wonder why you have no peace, you wonder why your children have turned on you, you wonder why your home is in disarray....you are the one that controls that energy in your house. If you create such an atmosphere, expect the reward for your actions....

We all have issues, problems, and things we must work through, but you have to make a daily decision to be better and work towards it when you are responsble for another soul. I believe there are some people who should not have children. I believe some women would destroy the child's spiritual nature...then you have some that mother a neighborhood and the block thanks her.....

If you have been that mom that has played favorites, you should be ashamed. If you hate you son because he is the only boy and reminds you of your ex...you choose his father. If one father pays his support and the other doesn't...that isn't the child fault...stop saying that they are like their sorry daddy...how are you so comfortable speaking against their creator....


Peace &  Love
~ X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word


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Love is in the air.....

As a single mom, I have found it interesting when it has come to being open to love. After moving past the rumors that having children makes you unattractive, I have spent the last year loving some me. What I have found is that others love some me too. It's like I make people love me who are around me because I love me so much....

So what does that mean for me when it comes to the potential of a relationship...that I am ready. I implore all of my beautiful single mothers who feel like there are no options....1. There are plenty 2. They aren't thugs 3. There are some amazing men out there and one is waiting on you....

Stop listening to the lies of the single with no one to love but themselves. Those who us spiritual enlightenment and solitude as a cover for their own lack of understanding as to why they attract who they do. You are a representation of the universal purpose of life and hope. You are the nurturers of this planet and are needed to birth the beauty of not only yourself and your children, but a very special man who is preparing himself for you....

So ladies, this is your song...this is your year...write your own tune...dance in the rain...celebrate life...lift your spirits...you are designed to love and meant to be loved.....

Time to embrace it....keep being good to you and the good for you will come....and it will be unstoppable....:-)

Peace & Love
~ X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

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SPOKEN T's first poetic t shirt by X Blu Rayne

This is X Blu Rayne first t-shirt with one of her never spoken or published poems until now. This shirt is designed to uplifting the spirits and hearts of the women of this world.  This will be one of many designs from this multifaceted artist and graphic designer.




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I am here...

Hollowed spirit/
empty being/
there is no life I am seeking/
I find comfort in the darkness/
fear this is what they have taught us/
but I sense a bliss/
no pain or hurt/
just empty spirit/
blades start to look like welcome mats/
38 looks like a good number/
and high rises look like an opportunity to fly for 3 seconds before my demise/
and I love to hear people say you have so much to live for/
all lies/
you want me to stay here where love is wrong and no one is trying to be right/
you want me to stay here where the strong perish and the weak prevail/
you want me to stay here where being black means living in a place that is the neighbor of hell/
you want me to stay here/
where being a thug has more prestige than being a father with a degree/
you want me to stay here where children are killed by the same women that birthed them/
women who are loved by the same men that hurt them/
you want me to stay here where the my blood from previous times cries out to me for justice and I have none to bring/
you want me to stay here/where every tear that I shed goes unnoticed/
where this pain is so deep I can't focus/
you want me to stay here/where I look at my children's face and can no longer give them the promise of a better day/
you want me to stay here/
you want me to stay here/
because every morning you give me a sunrise freely/
and you have answered me every time I have fallen on my knees/
you want me to stay here cause you have work for me to do/
and this pain you expect me to work through/
I am so tired of crying/
so tired of this feeling of desiring dying/
so I tell you what/
if tomorrow I wake up and see a sunrise/
I promise to try/
cause right now/
you are the only person that has yet to lie/
and I have no idea why you love me so much/
and all I have been seeking is an honest touch/
so if I awake in this place that has brought me pain/
and see the faces of those who have hurt me throughout this day/
hold me close in my spirit/
it's only because of you God that I am here today...

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Rise sista.....rise

Energy is neither destroyed nor created, but transferred from one play to another- Two Can Play That Game-the movie

So in this movie Vivica A. Fox is the main interest and finds out her boyfriend Morris Chestnut has lied and is keeping company with a client. She then does a series of things to get him back and teach him a lesson and almost losing the relationship in the end.

The biggest thing for me, is the need to stoop yourself so low to become this manipulative creature in order to get a desired end. How about just telling him how you feel and ask what's up? We can't though can we ladies...why...because his boys and the options he keeps around. The minute you act a certain way...they are on the prowl...hating and speaking against you and he is listening. Being in any kind of emotional state is wrong, having feeling is wrong, hell it's almost like saying that being a woman is wrong......

Wrong...being a woman is amazing. Being able to connect with God on a level envied by male leaders from the Bible too modern day....women are the natural nutures. You do have tanint specimens who time and their own actions have left them in a state of depseration and destruction. I am speaking to the sister in the sisterhood of love and peace. Who see what ails the world and want to heal it. Who sees what ails the man she loves and wants to heal him. Stay in the beauty of the purity of your womanhood.

Some of you may find that the man in your life is tripping hard. Thoughtless deeds, insensitive actions, and just plan out making the worst decisions knowing they will hurt you. Normally you can try to talk it through, but he is being helped...trust when I say that a female somewhere is invlved...if this is out of charater. Don't play games...if he falls for the okie doke...maybe you need to step away.

We are going into an undefined year. Even the Mayans left it open for us to decide on how we want things to go. It's is an ending of allowing things to distract us. It is an ending of the thinking of society of inferirioty of blacks and women. It is an ending of the booty hoe type thinking that continues to fuel the daughters of Eve....It is the time for the rise of the universal energy of the universal woman....

Rise my sisters...rise.....so that the beauty of the men can rise with you. Don't worry about the actions of others...be accountable for you....

Peace & Love
~Cynthia Jowers aka X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

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