King of mine

When he says I love you
I want to believe him
When he says I want you
I want to be able to receive him
Hesitation on my part 
Because there is a list of them
Asking for his attention
And it gets mentioned
That they get it
At times
So I never ask
Where is mine
Cause if I'm not worth the search
Then he doesn't deserve the find
Not looking for the king of the world
Just want a king that is mine...

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~ X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

He makes me feel like....

He makes me feel easy like the breeze, lovely, free, and me.......

As I think more on past relationships, I realize that the biggest element missing is me feeling like I am the only one that sights are on. I know many men measure love by what they do with regards to bill paying, being in the same room, and even sex. That, from my perspective, has nothing to do with love. It even diminishes more in value when you give that quality time to others, especially women who you know are trying to be with you and have no shame in expressing such. I had one incident where an ex would get a call from their's for their special time with them and they would get it...no second thought. Of course I was told it was nothing on his end, but I don't think he got what that made me think as a woman....all it equated to was that I wasn't special. I wasn't important enough to give that time to me...that previous reservations had still some value. But I was most important because he was there.

Position has nothing to do with validity of a relationship. If you are giving of yourself to people in your life to the degree as though you are single, you will leave a door open in your relationship. The person will be unfilled and possible entertain another's company because it's okay as long as you aren't having sex right? I might sound selfish, but if I am going to be with someone, I want to be the only woman he wants to give his quality time to outside of his family members, and even they have a short space...:-)

I want to be able to sit and think of him and smile...even if he is a million miles away. Just knowing that he loves me is comfort enough. There is nothing in love that is perfect because we as the players are flawed, and I know that that man did very much love me...I guess for me, it was a matter of knowing that he was still available to so many others...

I guess I am saying...I want to feel special. That might be my princess in me coming out, but if he can make every other woman feel that way...can he really be mine? If his spirit is so open that others can feel it, if he gives them time in late nights and early mornings....does that just make me one of the many....the thought here is no one wants to be a part of the crowd when they are suppose to be the one.....you feel me....just watch how you treat people and the messages you send in relationships. If you are giving her/him the basics and not the essentials...they will get them elsewhere.....don't be the 20%......

Peace & Love
~X Bly Rayne

Let's dance......

LADIES.....do something beaufutiul for yourself today...everytime you look in the mirror...give yourself a kiss...aint not nutha chick on your caliber...you are a unique creation with an amazin purpose....get out your microphone brushes and curling irons and get your boogie on before work.....

Peace & Love to all my sistas
~X Blu Rayne

R.est I.n O.ur H.earts....Lisa Lopez aka Left Eye

From my heart to yours....

Ok...so this one is really personal, but I believe in order to really reach your heart, I have to speak from my own. I really don't speak in detail of my relationships because I value the privacy and intimacy of it, but here it goes.....

*let us pray*

I am single. It is hard to say that considering I have been in relationships for years constantly...like the last 17 years to be exact. I have had some form of something with someone for a period of time. I have to say I have met the best of the best, and the worst of the worst, but I have always never spent time with me. I was being the good "wifey" and really, that was it. They received all the rights and privileges of husband and never had to make any commitment to me at all. Dang...I was so desperate no to be alone that I settled for being lonely with someone...

I was running down a path that was going no where in slow motion. It looked like the constant message was I wasn't good enough, I had too many issues, I was a mistake....it always was my fault. And it was my fault because I didn't care enough about myself to love myself and not let myself be subjected to less than what I deserved. I just didn't know I deserved better. I mean really, beside Claire Huxtable, name a woman in the media that has been treated right by a man....better yet...name 10 in your life that you know of.....I pray you can because I can't.

I love me...six kids and four fathers one miscarriage later....I love me....65 lbs lighter and no prospects I love me...Daily investing in my dreams I love me....lonely nights and sexless days I love me.....See I have learned to love me enough to wait on me to be that of how I see myself. I have my picture and everyday I look at her and tell her...I am coming. I am making the steps daily to be that picture that the universe has shown me is who I am in the perfected love og God....in my spirit. We are so amazing that we have to study ourselves to be who we are designed to be, and the first step is not allowing ourselves to intertwine with people who weren't meant to be with us.....Some of the people who have slept with was never meant to touch you. And yet you find yourself continuing to behave in a negative way even if they just have a female friend. He ain't yours, cause if he was...you'd be with him.......

So I am taking care to take care of Cynthia. I am not allowing any energy into my life that is going to cause harm or determent. If you are not genuine in progressing, please don't expect me to link to you. There was a time when I was unlinkable, and some people that I have respected I am finding are in that place with me.

Take care to take care of you.....I hope I didn't ramble too much....

Peace & Love
~X Blu Rayne
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Time to move.....if you wanna...

Instead of us just talking, it is now action. It goes beyond facebook stauses...it is your lifestyle. We can stunt here, and I know some who do, but if those around you can't attest to that which you are saying...then you are either a great actress or a bad liar...and either way...you are failing them and you, but you are not a failure...and I have no idea what a failure looks like cause I see possiblitiy in all of us because we are all God's reflection. Live in your spirit...in the peace of your soul...and watch how much your life changes and how many people you will help.....just try it....30 day gurantee that you will at least change one person....you...:-)

Be the change for the people in your life, be the hope for the youngsters and old heads in your family. Be the example for the ivy league family members with the appearance of perfection, but have brokenness hidden. Every person around you needs you to be the best you that you can be. You have no time for hating on anyone, that just means you hate you...and who really does that?

Love you until those around you will be jealous of how much you love yourself. Be confident in you were you intentionally uplift those around you. Be open th where you make everyone around you feel safe. Be loving to where no one who has know you has not know love...has not known God....it is not only possible...it's more than likely...I didn't get here overnight, but (in the words of Mrs. Celiy) I am here now....I am here...and so are you...let's move....I will help in any way I can.....the choice is yours....

Peace & Love 
~X Blu Rayne


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Sticks and stone may break......

Sticks and stones may break my bones, but words can never hurt me.....

The biggest lie ever told to children around the world. Words hurt, and the impact can last outside of you even knowing it. I had someone tell me that one of their female friends told them I wasn't good enough for them and get too much of their attention...this is a person I did respect and admire. Now, I just wonder what kindof person speak death to a potential relationship that could be long lasting, in any realm, to both parties? Needless to say that I have some thoughts and feelings that now have placed all of us in a position that is unknown to them......

Be careful what you speak to people. You aren't just saying it to that person...you saying it to all the other people they talk to as well. We all have that one person we tell things too, well...so do they and if it isn't you, it's someone else. And just like a disease, it spreads and the effects vary from person to person. Every word projects an image in people's minds and we live what we think and believe...so since I believe that this person has a negative view of me, it will dictate my actions. I have said some things that I regret, and I am sure some of my words are lingering in the hearts and minds of people that I do not know....and no matter what it has an effect.

If my words have offended anyone in anyway, I apologize. I don't hate anyone or hate on anyone. I don't care for some people, so I intentionally avoid them because I have a view of them that isn't positive, but I have no intention of causing them pain....

This is an area of growth for me, so maybe this one is more for me than you...just be mindful of the words you speak...you are shaping opinions of you and revealing who you really are...love and hate doesn't exist in the same place...check your words before you speak them.....

Peace & Love 
~X Blu Rayne

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You are precious......

Is there anyone in need of a healing? Is there any pain, disease, hurt, tears, anyone need to know all is well..

It is.....don't give it...you are being redefined..... I am not trying to bs you and tell you that there won't be hurts and pains, but it is really alright. It is actually better than alright. It is purpose in pain, otherwise how else would God show you how amazing you are when you allow the better you to shine through? I understand it doesn't feel good, and it doesn't look good. I am not going to tell you that all things are good...death is not good, sorrow is not good, betrayal is not good, lack is not good, loneliness is not good.....so what is good you are asking?

You are good, the God in you is great...so that means you have the ability to overcome any obstacle, surpass any expectation, look at challenges and trials in the face and even give them a high five...cause it would not have came your way if you didn't have the gusto to deal with it. Don't even use your issues as a sob story, matter of fact...feel bad for those who have had it "good" all their lives, cause that just means they don't have the what it takes to be that example and testimony of triumph the world needs to see.

I congratulate you one being deemed worthy by God to go through the refining fire...you will only get purified if you understand it purpose.....let's walk forward my diamonds and gold members...and remeber anything worth a large value went through a redefinging process.....You are priceless.....

Peace & Love 
~X Blu Rayne


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The art of the boot....

You deserve to be surrounded by people who deserves to be around you.......

So recently a lost a family member. Not lost in the sense they died, but lost in the sense of a Facebook deletion as friends...so I blocked them. I might be wrong in some people's eyes, but I have grown bored of the consistent negativity that is related to past issues. I am ready for new problems...like the ones people who are on the move in their live have.

Ever notice that broke people always have the same issues? I mean like the same drama with the same result with the same attitude with the same non-solutions. Can we get our life together first and then start having problems? Can we at least make sure disconnect notices aren't in our mailboxes, and bellies of not our households, but others are full, can we make sure that we are eating healthy and growing each other spiritually?.....that would be nice, but that would mean we would have to stop being the superficial, egotistical, short sight creatures that roam this planet and lick they own ass, otherwise why else would they keep up shit unless they like the way it taste????

I love all people because God made us all, but some of you have outlived your usefulness. I am not trying to live on this plane is a stat of discord...I like peace and refuse to have myself in pieces because you want to be broken. It's a choice. Just like you can choose to be better, I can choose to be better without you. Some of us hold on to rotting corpses of relationships, from friends to family, and wonder why we find ourselves spiritually dying. Tell them to call Tyrone, Budda, Jeusus, or your mama...but you can't use my phone.....Learn the art of giving people the boot....and understand, if you choose be be a certain way...you will get the boot too.........

Peace & Love 
~X Blu Rayne


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...a quote from Blu

"If you can't be happy for someone you once loved who is in love with someone else...you never loved them at all." ~X Blu Rayne

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...a quote from Blu

‎"Smile...and the world smiles with you....cry and a real friend gives you a shoulder, some tissue, and some support." ~ X Blu Rayne

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You are......

You are........

That is the question.....what are you? Not who because we all have been given an identity. You are male/female, melanin/nonmelanin, tall/short....etc...etc.....the bigger question is WHAT are you......

Are you a success or failure, a promise or a mistake, a desire or an insult...you have to decide what you are and come hell or high water...be what you see yourself as. There is no right or wrong here because only you have the answer to the question. You determine your what.....you decide.

No matter what you decide, understand that it comes from you, not your circumstances or situations. You are the final decision maker, the final authority, the final say so....you don't believe me.....hmmmmm....let me ask you this....if God doesn't force salvation on you, but let's you decide...then how can you blame anyone...even God for where you are in life.

In the end...you decide....time to make your decision....

Peace & Love 
~X Blu Rayne

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Family friends....

No family like friends and often no friends in the family.....

I think it is a beautiful thing when members of the same family have a geuine love and respect for each other. It adds to the holiday seasons, birthdays, and family reunions. I, like a lot of you, have family memerbs that never check on me and I have grown accustom to where I am actually surprised when I hear from them. It's no anger or discord, that I am aware of, it's just that neither of us see a value in the blood we share to share our lives with each other. Some people see that wrong, but these might be some of the same people that allow the known molester in the family around the children...my point is "family" is a relative term....

I value the friends I have Mirror Sista my mother, Jessica Christy my sister, Kristal Coleman my sister, Prayze Pretty Pea my sister, Hezzie Kendrick III my brother, and James Robinson my brother....these are more than relatives...these are my friends. If I ever need advice I call one of them. Then I have an extended group of friends that act as family to me...

I have this saying that friends will support you and family will abort you.....I say that because your family can hurt you worse because you expect them to love you best. The reality is that we are all people and in one way or another, all family. If mom can't respect your wife, she shouldn't be at your home until she does...if you have a brother that has molested his own child, he should never be around yours alone, if you have a sister who is a prostitute, she don't need to be staying with you, and if you have a cousin that steals from you...keep them from your ish!!!!!

Find the friend value in your family...those that you can trust and love and genuinely they love you. Hopefully, you'll have more friends in your blood line than you thought....people that care about you and are really there for you...people who want to know you and got your back no matter what....hmmmmmmmm......
maybe we should require that people qualify as friends before they rock the family clause....

cont..

Peace & Love 
~X Blu Rayne

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Oral Intelligence

There is an intelligence in oral sex...

I think when it comes to oral sex there is one rule....just as an individuals thinking is different from one person to another, so is the oral needs. Find out what you partner likes....

I think that a penis is a beautiful thing that should be kissed, touched, caressed, licked, and rode properly. I think no woman who can't get moist enough orally as well as vaginally is not deserving of such a gift and should maintain the knowledge of her body in order to appreciate the extension of life. It's not a dick, woody, or a joystick...it's nothing to play with, but worshiped. It is a man's most cherished possession and therefore should always be greeted with a kiss......

If this makes you sqeemish.....don't worry...he's not coming to you for appreciation anyway.....he's going to someone else....

Peace & Love 
~X Blu Rayne

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