Sugar mamas.......

Sugar mamas....the new disease of women......

Lies, trickery, and extremely irresponsible. Are you his mother? If she wasn't able to "make" him a better man, what makes you think you can? Oh I see, you wear Prada and Gucci, got a great job, beautiful in looks, nice body, and all the potential of a great wife....one problem...he's broke, has no goals, is a moocher, and guess what....he's fine though........

Geez.....why is the sugar mama part of some of the new age woman's mentality. You get him unrefined and undefined and wonder why he cheats on you, disrespects you, and leaves you for the hood chick that has what he had...cause you have given him the resources he need to be looked at as "the man"....and you're not going anywhere because you went for him when you shouldn't have.

I will never short change a man working for McDonalds and consider him less than the man who owns it. I will say this...IF he works for McDonalds with a million dollar mentality and a work ethic that falls in line, he's already ahead of the game, but the smart guys don't go for superficial women anyway....so......maybe it's better to change you first...then you won't have to change "him"......

Who wants to have to "raise" a grown man anyway...not one woman on the face of this planet......time to put the sugar mamas out of business.....it's real women they want anyway......

Peace & Love,
~X Blu Rayne


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Be the change.....

Be the change you want to see........

A beautifully spoken sentiment by President Obama. Has he lived up to this yet? Some people says yes and others say no. Even if you think he hasn't, it is irrelevant....you know why...because he is still here. Alive and he has the ability to choose what he will do to live true to those words....

We are so quick to give up on people. Our microwave mentality of quick fixes and immediate results have caused us devalue work and due process. It's ok to "fake it until you make it" in some people's eyes, but most expect things to be what is stated. Even in churches they push a "right now God",but we forget even Jesus, God in the flesh, had processes to go through before he could teach himself.

My point is simple, if you woke up this morning ...you have not failed to live in your potential. You can take those steps needed to be who you are destined to be. Embrace, love, and live your process ....appreciate the journey because that makes the goal that much more worth it....today is your day...and if you need to...look at yourself in the mirror and appreciate who you are today....cause she/he will be a little wiser ....a little stronger ...a little different tomorrow.

Peace & Love
~X Blu Rayne


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All about you.....

It is one thing to say...it's another to be....

Repetition is the mother of all learning, but it is also the unveiling of all things uncertain. I see so many stats of women saying they are secure, confident, and independent women, but then I see millions of photos with the infamous t-shirt/panty shot, statuses that tell us you are not over dude/dudes like you say, or references to a time in your life where you thought you were about something....

I see men with half naked bathroom mirror topless shirts, calling women out of there names with a preface of they don't go for them type chicks, and statuses about all the money they make.....

...the funny thing is, if I go to a bar, church, gala function, or White House dinner, I will meet them both there. Insecure and broken people trying to convince the world they are something, but they see nothing when they look in the mirror. I apologize if it seems as though I am judging, but I am about to give you one of the most important statements anyone has ever told you....you ready........

The best thing about you is you...everything that you are is wonderful and beautiful. The world needs you to be you, because no one else can. You were created in a glorious image with infinite abilities and designed to be loved, cherished, and appreciate from now until time no longer exist. Your impact is not only needed, but required in someone's life, whether in this time or the next, to allow them to be who they are. Just as someone has done so for you.

Believe that.....

Peace & Love,
~X Blu Rayne


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What will you decide?

You are who you are because of what you decided to do........

So many times, things occur in our lives that shape us and make us into a certain person...or so we think. What if the reality is so many things have happened in our lives to shape our thinking and thus we are now benefactors of how we live out our thoughts. It might sound strange, but think about it...you eat what you do because of how you want your body to be right...wrong...you eat what you do based of the information you have on how it will affect your body.....amazing isn't it.....

The way we think is what determines how we are and who we are...not how we are treated. Good or bad, in the end, you control how you will be, not them. So stop giving credit or blame to other people. If you want to know why you are the way you are...look in the mirror. Only they have the answers you are looking for...

And if you don't like the answers...then you must answer the bigger question...What are you gonna do about it?

Peace & Love 
~ X Blu Rayne



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What is love?

I have to admit that there is something about me that has attracted controlling men. I am not a woman that wants any man fighting another man for my affections and attention, not only is that degrading to the men, but that is suicidal to my thinking. To have a thought process that I am the cause of discord, anger, and maybe even violence...and to take pleasure in it makes me wonder how sick we have become when it comes to love.

Love doesn't hurt, it is not self, it is not proud, it does not fail, it forgives, it progresses, it understands, it's compassionate, it is caring, it is considerate...it is the qualities of God.....

So if you meet someone, and you see the opposite of what I have described, you are voluntarily accepting of receiving less than what you want in life.....every man and woman wants to be loved, and we all have issues, but if when you meet someone, and they speak in the possible worst way about themselves, and ex, or a baby mama/daddy....what will they say and how will they speak of you.....love you better......

Peace & Love
~X Blu Rayne



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Today is a new day

Everything that we do has a consequence. No matter what you do or say, something will happen, if not to anyone else...it will happen to you. There is good news...that means if you decide today you decide to love yourself, if today you decide to be better, if today you decide that you will no longer sell yourself short, if today you decide to live in your dreams, if today you decide to commit to you....guess what...not only can you do it or should you do it...but the benefit is all yours....


You have the power to choose. You have the ability to choose. You have the right to choose.


Have a blessed day...


 Peace & Love 
~X Blu Rayne



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4 days left

I have been very busy these last few days. Did a slam, started a new book made so many calls to the US about future shows, sold CDs, and been writing so real thoughts and feelings. Oh yeah...a lot of pictures too. I said I needed to get away for awhile, and I am glad I did. I have learned so much here. On the other side of the world you are defined by where you come from first. There are Caucasians that consider themselves African because they come from Africa. Nationality is really key here in how you are seen and judged. I will say that there is silent prejudice that isn't as blatant as in the US as well as the views of women being the underclass, but the biggest factor is where you are from. So I am defined as American...not black first, but American...then African American...not black.

I will say this, the few Africa men I have talked to have some thoughts about us unifying races that is still very Martin Luther King. Malcolm's ideals are viewed as dangerous and destructive, and yet they had no idea what melanin was, they think they have to protect themselves front the sun, and that white people are superior and better. Most of the brothers date and have  children with Caucasians of prefer them for similar reasons as one gets in the states...except it is more about status than anything. America is considered the most evil nation on this planet and Obama has been paralleled to Hitler in wanting to destroy his own people.

This trip has been an eye opener and mind expanding for me. I have had time and quiet to really think about the things I have been doing in my life and  the things and people who don't need to be apart of it. I have made some selfish decisions and some out of a concern which came back in the end to benefit me. I have formed unhealthy relationships and have connections with people who are poisonous to my progression. I have to get me together...I have some serious grind work to do within my own soul....

I am not expecting it to all change immediately, but I am immediately moving myself to change. In 4 days I will be back on US soil....working harder and more effectively... resurrecting dreams and ideas that I had let fall because I was fearful of going at it alone...it's time to upgrade on my grind, upgrade in my find.....it's time

Crutch

This is as honest as a poet can get

And some of these things you may find to be a bit much

But I can't keep lying and claim to be with my heart in touch

I have allowed myself to be touched too much

Giving myself over on out of town trips or in town flings

Baby daddy sex means nothing

See I keep saying I want to be in love but I live with lust

That disconnected being

Doesn't care about anything

Fornication isn't in my vocabulary 

And cheating is a defined casuality

Of any woman expecting to be loved singularly

My  thinking is so messed up

Cause I have allowed myself to be touched to much

I have enjoyed the moment in it's duration

But even my body has an anger towards penetration

Cause I bleed at the thought of the sensation

Yet I give in to the notion

Not that sex equals love

But sex equals living

Pastors, keep your opinion cause your sermons of this being sinning

Is meaningless to me

I'd  rather be alive in hell than pretending to be feeling

Cause I have allowed myself to be touched to much

The faces are not a blur

and they are not nameless

And I fight the urge to allow my panties to be famous

But who can remain blameless

And I could act like I got my shit together and be shameless

But this is a cry out in pain

I despise every man that has laid with me

Cause calls back don't happen

No real change in staus, it's more of a let's just see what happens

Had babies with men that treat me like the whore they have said I am

And I have put up with such

Cause I have allowed myself to be touched to much

This is a crutch

A fucking crutch

I look at myself in the mirror and wonder what did she do to me

That little broken girl that won't let me be

She never had the love of daddy

Never had the respect of any man

In her mind, they just want her to have sex with them

I pray at night she will no longer be angry and forgive

I pray for a her death so I can live

Damage so deeply it is a part of my soul

Will this go away before it's too late

Before I get old

If there ever was a Super hero

I hope he can see her behind this exterior that seems so bold

Cause I am in bondage of pain that is becoming a permanent crutch

Cause I have allowed myself to be touched too much....

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...so I went out last night

So last night I experienced an English poet named Paula Varjack...she is very talented and she had CD's for sale...felt like home..:-)....yep...they where 5 Euros....they I went out to a club here called MC....it was different only in there were more men than women. It was cold and the women where half naked, you could tell who where the "it" men and women, and the music was bumping...get this though...there are sound police that walk around with a mic to see if the sound in the club is too loud...here you can smoke when you are young and drink at 18...like it is okay...they even have Red Light districts.....it's so open in those things that we shunn yet so closed in it's thinking.....interesting

....I am here

Hello family,

I am writing you from Leuven, Belgium....It is still so surreal to say that. I am so thankful at what I have experienced thus far. So that you know, I travel for 16 hours....3 trains and two planes...lol. I have enjoyed the experiences thus far. I have met some pretty awesome people and have seen somethings that are quite interesting. Like in Finland, they have an airline called BLUE 1, and the restroom is called WC (water closet)....and in the Belgium airport, the bathrooms have doors from floor to ceiling so men and women can go into the same bathroom together and it is no big deal.

On to some Blu Truth......

I am so excited to be here, and yet I understand that this is monumental to my own success. I am not trying to pave a way, the way was already made otherwise I would not be here. All the amazing women from my mother to Harriet Tubman all lived their lives in a manner that made me believe that where I am right now is not a fluke or a mistake. This was by design in the tapestry of God. I had to do my part and change my thinking when it came to those things that are possible in my own life. I have upset some people, offended some people, and have been told everything from that I am selfish to I don't love my children. Someone told me that the people crazy enough to think they can change the world are the ones that do it. I am guessing with how I see myself in doing this poetry and spoken word is something outside of the box that doesn't really exist. In ideal world, I wouldn't have to worry about my children being separated because one of my baby daddy's wanted to throw his weight around when I left, my son wouldn't be in a position to be made to have to deal with that man's ignorance, my children would have no doubts that I love them and that my actions are not designed to bring them stress, that I do love this man even though I don't think he feels the same way, and that above all others would see the big picture. We don't live in an ideal world, and I don't know if my big picture matters to anyone but me, but it matters. Because it matters to me, eventually...everyone who is really for me and loves me will see it too. Until they...I have to keep working on my big picture just like you have to yours.

You will have those moments like I did....I received a call  that made me not want to get on the plane, because the person who was going to be there for my children found something better to do. Truthfully, I have continually made the mistake of trusting the unworthy because I have some things to work out. Just like I know that I am suppose to be here, things worked out there....so now I am working. Sitting here writing you, working on pieces, and adjusting to a new sleep schedule with a slightly swollen eye due to a fight with a Belgium mosquito...I lost...lol....but I am smiling. I will keep you updated on everything. Videos will be uploaded...we are about to have some serious fun..

Peace & Love
~Blu

Arrogant Moment.....

I HATE LIARS!!!! You told me I wasn't about anything, would be anything, would do anything, wouldn't have anything and me having 6 children would keep me from being wanted. You told me unless I had a flat stomach I wouldn't be sexy. You told me if I did have unblemished skin everyone would see me as tarnished. You told me if I didn't spit a poem to your approval that I would never be a great poet....YOU DIDN'T HAVE TO LIE.....you could have just told me the truth...the real reason you wanted to keep me down was because you saw me passing you...out lasting you...out doing what you claim is your calling because the only thing you are good at is stalling....Stop lying to yourself and stop lying to me....I am the shit and you are the fly that can't leave me....shoo fly and don't bother me...peace

I Want You-Performed in Longview, TX at Love Lounge

I performed this in Longview, TX at the Love Lounge

Fear of Success

Superwoman

I woke up this morning and after being a mother for almost 16 years the reality of that I am the the consistent parent in my children's live. I am the one responsible for their well being...mentally,spiritually,emotionally, and physically. It is not to say that the dad isn't around from time to time, but they have lives that don't revolve around the children, but mine do. I have been working everyday since Wednesday and still have to get the children set in school, have a sick 1 yr old, work on my career, and do it all with a smile...See I am way more than a poet...I am a mother...a single one  with six children at that...and I am learning to master this so I can help other mother's not be dependent on anyone outside themselves. WE CAN DO THIS!!!!!!!

Peace & Love
~X Blu Rayne