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X Blu Rayne is an author, poet, spoken word artist,graphic designer,host writer and motivational speaker. A reflection of God's light and His movement on the face of the storms of life. She is poetry personified....

Monday, January 30, 2012

Time's up

Reconfiguration of the mind has taken place
Looking in the mirror, I feel disgraced
Though saved by grace
I have taken up to must space
In feeble thinking 
Keep shit on my mind
Going from intelligence to desolate waste
And I know better
Have chosen to keep company
With wolves in sheep clothing
Cause good days use to bore me
Chaos was my best friend
Loved it and drama, it's first cousin
But now I have left them hoes at the corner
Of enough and fed up
Gave them the middle finger, they got me messed up
So now I am soul cleaning
Not just mopping and sweeping
I am talking about changing the wallpaper and steam cleaning
Cause I can't move forward with the weights of others
People will suck you dry like you are their breast feeding mother
Some of you don't deserve my pearls, you swine
Trying to save you is like trying to keep a fruit fly from dying
There is a time limit...so no need in me trying

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It's yours....

Be great to yourself. Don't allow your past mistakes make you not be able to love who you are in your process of being. It is a process....a step by step....a daily workout in becoming the amazing individual to bless the collective. Don't worry about who is not helping, who is hating, and who is coming against you....what are you going to do?

Are you going to buckle? Give up? You have already tried that and failed. You couldn't stop growing if you tried....the passion and drive within you won't let you quit....

So put that energy into it all the way, wholeheartedly....and watch what happens.

Success, joy, and happiness is yours for the owning.

Peace & Love
X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

I will be free.....

I will be free...

You ever decide that you are going to do for you. Start your own businesses, finish a project or projects, organize your life in a manner that works for you...then KABOOM.....You get accused of being a bad friend to the people who have been running over you this whole time. People who have taken advantage of your skills and gifts. Using you like a cheat sheet in life to short cut their way to their own success and give nothing but nickels and dimes to yours.....

You are not a lifesaver if you have no life within you. If you are always giving and never receiving your due diligence, them you are no good to anyone. We are responsible for who we are, where we are in life, and the things we must do. Some of us are in different stages, but there are some expectations that are no longer being required. Women will bed a man with no job, no prospects of income, and live at his mama house. Men will bed women who have no goals or dreams except Child support and food stamp days.....WHY...because they think they can change them, make them better....You can change the way they dress and the way their hair looks, but you can't touch their thought patterns if they don't let you.....

I am not saying don't help people, but don't do it to the point where it compromises you. I am in my process of organizing my life. I have deleted people on Facebook, Twitter, and in real life. I am not giving a gateway for anyway to send negative energy my way nor am I leaving doors open to people who I know I will let take me through because they know I love them. I am reconnecting with my true self...the God in me and setting the bar higher than ever before. I am saving my self. Reprogramming my thinking and being. I have stopped so many things in a few days....I feel the breaking in my own soul....the day has come for me to free myself from my own personal chains....

Be free my friends.....great morning...:-)

Peace & Love,

X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

Friday, January 20, 2012

Forever in our hearts...Etta James

She sang
From her heart she sang
For the broken heart and those in love
She sang
When they said she had no place to sing
She sang
From her spirit
She sang
From her soul
She sang
For the young
She sang
For the old
She sang
Etta James.....sang

X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word



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Tuesday, January 17, 2012

My affirmation....

‎"I refuse to look in the mirror one day and wonder why on earth I am where I am. No matter what I do in my life, I will choose my steps carefully and to the best interest of my destiny. I will no longer be afraid of who is not there, but appreciate who is there. I will no longer look for love, but appreciate the love that is there. I will not look for a friend, but allow those who have shown themselves friendly to be apart of my life. From the best of life, I will live." ~ X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

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Monday, January 16, 2012

My Dreams.....

I have a dream that all the dreams I have set before me I can resurrect and one day make a reality........

How many dreams and goals have you had that you put away? How many ideas and thoughts did you decided to give up on because someone convinced you that you weren't qualified to have them? How many times have you peek in that closet and thought...what if?

What if I hadn't given up on my dreams? What would my life be like? What if I took up the profession I wanted instead of the one forced on me by my parents? What if I married the one I fell in love with instead of the more suitable choice????? WHAT IF??????

What if, today, you went inside your closet and started to go through those lost dreams and goals. You will find that they are still there, and some have even matured without you realizing it. Everything that you are designed to do, be, and have is at your discretion. You have to have the courage and gusto to go for it. Whether it is a degree, career change, business opportunity, relationship opportunity, or even hair color change (smile), you decide on what you want to do.

I know it can be scary. I mean, let's admit it, fear can cripple our dreams. Often times, our fears aren't failing at what we want to do, but other extremes that we create in our minds. Fears like being hurt physically, losing a family member, or just the most extreme things that could go wrong. This is because we have never been taught in our educational experiences, that we are designed to be successful. That we are designed to prosper. That being black isn't an inferior position unless we believe it to be so.

I want to encourage you this morning and tell you that your dreams are not lost. Hope hasn't left you, and Faith is waiting on you to believe to make your dreams and goals come true....will you believe today.

Peace & Love, 

 ~ X Blu Rayne...Mz. Spoken Word

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Thursday, January 5, 2012

He......

He told them I was special
He had to
otherwise why would they come at me like they do
Say all kinds of crazy cause he said I was amazing
Said that I make him smile and laugh
And whether it's 3 pm or 6am, his calls I would never gaff
I make myself to him available
Because my spirit he keeps stable
My passion he enables
Let's me be me, not needing to be a princess from fables
He is the truth
But I swear he is unreal
Not about how he makes me feel
But how he makes me want him
And I am thankful to them
Cause they inspire him to want me
Every negative thing they say
Causes him to search diligently
For the best of me
They tell him he is wasting his time
So he brings me chocolate covered blueberries and wine
They tell me I have too many kids
He falls in love with them like they are his
I go from needing his talents to appreciating his opinion
They get his abilities, but I get love from him
Funny thing is
I now find myself searching for the best in him
Past his pains that he acts aren't real
Or the emotions he ignores because he is not sure how to feel
I see him...the real
Osiris in the form of my savior
He is God and king to me
When I look at him that is all that I see
Even when I failed to love him right, he never left me
So I stand here ready to care for his heart
Live in his soul
Allow his spirit to teach me to be whole
I await for the day when my last name is changed
My heart has been exchanged
Love is all I feel, pain no longer remains
Growth in understanding the goal we are here to obtain
Has me sitting ere saying
Thank you to the ones who thought they knew
He only speak that way about me, cause he loves me...not you...

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